towned yesterday though i wasnt exactly in the mood for it.
but da was already straightening her hair and singing karaoke songs to herself in her croaky-flu voice.
was quite fun though. aha. got pretty hyped up.
bought 2 cheeaap tops ; fourskin+stussy -wiggles eyebrows. and i came home with 3 pairs of earrings. just realised theyre all purple. haha
and da got herself a pink skirt. in THAT ah lian shop which i itched to run out of in case of mistaken identity. haha saw a pair of really cute purple heels. its more like those old klick klock shoes. but there was pretty purple felt all around the shoe with lighter shade of purple decorations laced all over. was just really cute. but obviously. i looked spastic in it. and i wont dare to wear it out if i bought it! and there was that super cute coin purse..and that bag..haha. wasnt aware that far east sells so many cute stuff! was a wisma+taka girl. whatever that means.
oh! and we took neos :) the black+white one was eccentric. we shall take it again haha.

we saw jackie chan! and i bet his arms ached from all that excess waving. but how could he stop when everyone was so enthusiastically screaming and waving? madness but qt funny. oh yes. and we saw this VERY HIGHLY amusing transsexual who decided to have her own lil parade for the cine crowd. damn funny. and he was freaky! figure was fab but his face was HORRID. defined ageing lines. and his hair sucked. it was like dry mat. and he still happily PRETENDED to be shy and covered the bottoms of his MICROMINI skirt constantly with that grotesque look on his face -pukes. but well. he was entertaining. and when i got on the train there was this woman or should i say old woman acting young and hyper. she looks like a drunk slut. laughing..more like cackling like a hyena and boy, is her voicebox huge. everyone in the train was staring at her thru'out the journey. and she was obviously pleased with herself, putting up a show of smooching her boyfriend jumping around and playing some sorta fist game. and of course, constantly bumping into people with her ugly black handbag but obviously not batting an eyelid to care. rolls eyes! anyhow. my sister saw xiao zhu and she reports that he's helluva lanky but cute. so. haha. and he looks exactly like the way he does on the heeren screen. and my eye candy! shaved his head. for army, i guess. he looks qt weird. but still cute. aha. oh yes!! and there was this superbly spastic guy with his egoism brimming a mile wide coming forward to da+i and started ranting : do you know who am i? im a very famous guy and blah blah. we stared at him. then we found out he plucks eyebrows. well sissy, get lost. who ARE you?

american idol3 was hilarious!! the things people do to earn some fame. i wonder how they can keep a straight face and do the things they do themselves. and ryan seacrest is not only cute. but very nice too. hmm -looks at da. HAHA okayokay. hands off.

people people. all sorts of people.

i wanna watch peter pan+the company+love me if you dare ! but nobody's in the movie mood.

just realised its feb1st! which implies nothing but its a new month! which..implies nothing, but. okay ignore me.

my mum asked me to read this article written by a china girl from our school that was published in the chinese pprs ._.

stupid tings aint replying me. growls at her angrily.

d'oh. (dont knw why i typed tht. just felt like it. aha anyhow. pls ignore me.)

oh sheesh! im melting. save me.

look at him!!





and he's no himbo. he draws really well. (and acts well also la. duh)

he's taken. after ashton kutcher :D
say hello to mrs kutcher-sumpter.

i shall stop my nonsensical gushing.
and yes i was like that too when it was the ashton kutcher period. aha.
but well. typical wendy!
and he kisses wendy on screen :(
however. sadly
and obviously
its not me.
but ha! we shall do the same on our wedding day :))

im gonna drag tings to watch it with me.
or freda.
or maybe sabrinanapok + ree.
steph + sq?? theyre not the movie type though. but this is an exception! everyone has to watch peter pan! and the tinkerbell doesnt look very tinkerbell-ish eh. they shld get someone who's small + pixie-ish + waif. something like kristine kruek! but anyway. peter pan! haha my entire entry is abt him! i shall stop crapping before all your eyeballs roll out due to excess exercise just reading my entry. haha.

sabrina and jess are both patiently taking in my gushes. i feel so bad for putting them through this. haha ashton kutcher period was poor dada and tings. aha.

american idol! shall go watch how the people suck in abt half an hour. and widen eyes at those fab ones too la. haha. i think i need to get down to some serious studying. starting tomms. i shall mug for the geog test early! and h.chi test too. hmm. yesyes.

i dont feel like thinking.

yawn. tired.

wyn just left about an hour++ ago! tata butch. hahas. please take care. and dont get into fights la. tsktsk.

watched school of rock! :D not bad. pretty hilarious! and the drummer qt cute hahas.
i want to watch the company! and peter pan -sulks.
everyone's busy. or not in the mood. and there's no time.
grr. ignore me. am grouchy.

failed the damn physics test by 1.5 marks. i cannot believe how i keep missing it.
damnation!

oh god this is so true of tings!! i have to paste it down. aha

>>Friend: has never seen you cry
Best friend: has always had the best shoulder to cry on [super true]

Friend: never asks for anything to eat or drink
Best friend: opens the fridge and makes herself at home [er not really..shes a preserved young lady okay -laughs.]

Friend: asks you to write down your number.
Best friend: they ask you for their number [super duper true.]
(cuz they can't remember it)

Friend: borrows your stuff for a few days then gives it back.
Best friend: has a closet full of your stuff [YES. ok not a closet but more than just a couple of things]

Friend:! only knows a few things about you
Best friend: could write a biography on your life story [aha i guess.]

Friend: will leave you behind if that is what the crowd is doing
Best friend: will always go with you [shes always going w me or i'd be going with her]

yayy my bestie!! haha im so childish but yes.

-

oh god! the cosmogirl's online newsletter says "win ashton's hat" !! looks at da and fiona ._.

i dont really like hilary duff but her song keeps getting played on air it got stuck in my head.

Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away my sanity
Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean,I'm coming clean, oh

I'm shedding, shedding every color
tryin to find a pigment of truth beneath my skin Oh
Cause different doesn't feel so different
And going out is better than always stayin' in
Feel the wind

waiting ; the entire time of your life.

whts wrong with blogger. since when does it take 4minutes to load?

and i didnt mean to type the "waiting..blah" to match the blogger delay. what coincidence.

anyway.

my eye hurts. yeow.

i really think i have a tumour in my head, behind my left eye. people are like right. yes, wendy breast cancer then tumour la. but how do you explain the recurring pain inflicted on my poor eye?!

sigh.

anyways.

had a splitting headache. so splitting that i couldnt make it to school. aha. really. it was migrane-like. though i was fine after taking the medicine, i only slept 2hrs which is like 40winks to me. so i plonked back into bed.

dear wyn isnt leaving yet. and i so did not waste my time eh. but hell. met dada and tanessa. walked around (no eye candy :(( ) dined at lips (actually it wasnt really dinner. just peach smoothie with two FAB chicken wings. and yes i was such a dammit klutz. splurt the smoothie all over my jeans. and da thinks it looks like i leaked. so i hastily tried to clean it up..yes i was too lazy to mend the mess at the beginning haha. and i looked like some obscene freak ._. it was EVEN MORE obscene whn da helped me. sheesh) then this person came for a while..i think shes vanessa or valerie or something like that. aha shes so cute. in a funny ah soh-ish way. but shes really funny. haha. anyway after tanessa went to send her mobile for repair, we left town for home. i think tht girl's drowning in remorse now about her loss thanks to herself la. throw the phone around any old how. oh well. and haha we were listening to the polyphonic ringtones at nokia! not bad but SO cheap eh. but well. its polyphonic. i shall speak no more.

haha my sis is damn funny. this guy told her some spooky freaky deaky stories and she got so damn freaked she stationed me outside of the lavatory while she shitted and bathed - with the door opened. yes. im not kidding -rolls eyes.

to everyone i know. please take care. i dont want to hear any more depressing news.

-

i love the song yellow by coldplay :)
Look at the stars; look how they shine for you
And everything you do
Yeah, they were all yellow

I came along; I wrote a song for you
And all the things you do
And it was called yellow

So then I took my turn
Oh what a thing to have done
And it was all yellow

Your skin, oh yeah your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
D'you know?
You know I love you so
You know I love you so

I swam across; I jumped across for you
Oh what a thing to do
'Cos you were all yellow

I drew a line; I drew a line for you
Oh what a thing to do
And it was all yellow

And your skin, oh yeah your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
D'you know?
For you I bleed myself dry
For you I bleed myself dry

It's true
Look how they shine for you
Look how they shine for you
Look how they shine for…
Look how they shine for you
Look how they shine for you
Look how they shine

Look at the stars
Look how they shine for you
And all the things that you do

-

look how they shine for you
and all the things that you do

rain rain go away
come again another day
little children want to play!!

aha. madness.

-looks at da. 2 days? but it'll be alright, yea :)

Who is the girl with the crying face looking at millions of signs?
She knows that life is a running race,
Her face shouldn't show any line.

Melody fair won't you comb your hair? you can be beautiful too.
Melody fair , remember you're only a woman .
Melody fair, remember you're only a girl.

Who is the girl at the window pane, watching the rain falling down?
Melody, life isn't like the rain ; it's just like a merry go round.

Melody fair won't you comb your hair? you can be beautiful too.
Melody fair, remember you're only a woman.
Melody fair, remember you're only a girl.

Who is the girl with the crying face, looking at millions of signs?
She knows that life is a running race.
Her face shouldn't show any lines.

Melody fair won't you comb your hair? you can be beautiful too.
Melody fair , remember you're only a woman.
Melody fair, remember you're only a girl.


tired after days of visiting. only 2 days la but still. was quite fun tho. haha my sister and her lil crush -winks- supposed to have some cousins outing or something but -looks at the rain- and some of them arent free so well. going grams place (AGAIN..) later. shall do some homework! tings did her SATs and she said the english was horrid. oh! the other time we were at kino and she showed me how their SATs workbook (smth like our ten year series) gave advice like : dont worry if you fail your SATs you can still be a politician or singer and stuff like that. aha so lame.

i deleted all your messages today.
and i'll be okay :)

we all want to go the mtv asia awards! but eeyer. must win tics. judging our luck..shakes head.

yayy miss selfridge topshop dorothy perkins etc end of season sale!! jumps for joy. shall go check out the top ive gaped at for months :))

im feeling so smiley ever since ive changed my blog layout to something cheerful for a change :) see? aww. hahas.

was watching that gillian chung and shawn yue show last night. so sweet! though she left him. and the big black bra belonged to shu qi who is so fucking pretty. but i find it unbelievable that she wore the same bra for 10years and it doesnt show any sign of tear/wear. weird! haha and shawn yue's friend so corny!! think of ways to torment the rat like electrocuting it and in the end their dicks all kenna. so he was worried that he got infertile. and shawn yue asked him to watch the rA show the next morning. and the people from the other gang stuffed the bean up his ass! hilarious.

off to do other stuff. tatas'

i love my toe nails!! :)))

left for town after the new year celebrations in school with dada to meet her friends for lunch (but we ened up walking around together dont ask me why) and i saw my eye candy!!!!!!! oh god. i was practically melting when we met him as we were going up the heeren escalator. aha and da thinks that he knows! cos i get all hyped up when he looks at me. oh well. but he's so damn cutee i cant stop gushing about him. just talking about him makes me smile. like oh wendy stop it and get a grip. hee.

-// FLUXXOMATION

anyhow. ate at pastamania after i got my stuff (dcp pullover :D and a pair of earrings for tomms) with everyone and then we HAD to see her. i just told dada that i wanna see her and she appears half an hour later. oh well. its really saddening how you take me for granted and jump back to her whenever you can. its not fair. its not .. whatever. and i tell myself youre not worth it but its hard to do so when deep down, i dont believe youre like that. and its sucks. i guess this is where we end. and i guess to you, it doesnt matter how it does. but WHATEVRR. sigh. but then i dont mean it..but i do..and i hate myself for being so hung up about you. for still bothering. for still caring :(

you left me alone and then you walked out on me
i dont care. i dont care.

will you stay or will you walk
will you let go
leave me all alone

-//all american rejects.

anyway. we saw people and like dada overheard someone saying, its like the whole of singapore is in town. haha.

happy new year everyone. going my gran's house now :)) reunion dinner!

you see? you dont affect me that much anyway.

DADA sorry for making you bring the straightener then not use it later. whoops. and also, sorry for being so chaobin just now after .. well. after it. -kowtows- haha. and thanks for bringing me to flash+splash to see my eye candy so as to perk me up!! you know me too well :D lovelove! and stay happy yourself.

DARLIN TINGS heyhey i miss you!! we HAVE to hang out next friday. just hope we are able to man. take care in msia and good luck for your SATs alright. reply my message! -growls- haha and i bet you were staring at my cover girl right. haha dont forget to look at your gillian too :) take care and im glad you had such a blast at interact :))

I can barely breath
Can you hear me scream

O thrown in all directions
You epitome of perfection
She's lost her will,
Time is standing still

He walks, her, home
Now he walks a - lone
The days they turn into years
The eyes they drown in tears

Can you hear me scream

Time is standing still

haha got this forwarded mail from mina. its quite an old joke but its so lame i have to paste it here.
>>It's not the fault of the student if he fails, because the year has
ONLY 365' days.

Typical academic year for a student.

1. Sundays-52,Sundays in a year, you know Sundays are for rest.
days left 313.

2. Summer holidays-50 where weather is very hot and difficult to
study. days left 263.

3. 8 hours daily sleep-means 130 days.
days left 141.

4. 1 hour for daily playing-(good for health) means 15 days.
days left 126.

5. 2 hours daily for food & other delicacies(chew properly &
eat)-means 30days. days left 96.

6. 1 hour for talking (man is a social animal)-means 15 days
days left 81.

7. Exam days per year atleast 35 days.
days left 46.

8. Quarterly, Half yearly and festival (holidays)-40 days.Balance 6
days.

9. For sickness atleast 3 days. remaining days 3.

10. Movies and functions atleast 2 days. 1 day left.

11. That 1 day is your birthday. "How can you study at that day?"
Balance days 0

"How can a student pass ?????"

yes. how can we pass??

and here's another one by nana and it leaves you..thinking.

Dart Test...

THIS IS A POWERFUL MESSAGE. PLEASE READ ALL OF IT. I AM
PASSING IT ON BECAUSE I AM CERTAINLY NOT ASHAMED TO DO
SO.


In light of the many jokes we send to one another for a laugh, this is a little different: This is not intended to be a joke, it's not funny, it's intended to get you thinking..............

Dart Test...

A young lady named Sally, relates an experience she had in a seminary class, given by her teacher, Dr. Smith. She says that Dr. Smithwas known for his elaborate object lessons.

One particular day, Sally walked into the seminary and knew they were in for a fun day.

On the wall was a big target and on a nearby table were many darts. Dr. Smithtold the students to draw a picture of someone that they disliked or someone who had made them angry, and he would allow them to throw darts at the person's picture.

Sally's friend drew a picture of who had stolen her boyfriend. Another friend drew a picture of his little brother. Sally drew a picture of a former friend, putting a great deal of detail into her drawing, even drawing pimples on the face. Sally was pleased with the overall effect she had achieved.

The class lined up and began throwing darts. Some of the students threw their darts with such force that their targets were ripping apart. Sally looked forward to her turn, and was filled with disappointment when Dr. Smith, because of time limits, asked the students to return to their seats. As Sally sat thinking about how angry she was because she didn't have a chance to throw any darts at her target. Dr. Smithbegan removing the target from the wall.

Underneath the target was a picture of Jesus. A hush fell over the room as each student viewed the mangled picture of Jesus; holes and jagged marks covered His face and His eyes were pierced.

Dr. Smithsaid only these words... "In as much as ye have done it unto the least of these my brethren, ye have done it unto Me."
Matthew 25:40.

No other words were necessary; the tears filled eyes of the students focused only on the picture of Christ.

This is an easy test; you score 100 or zero. It's your choice.

If you aren't ashamed to do this, please follow the directions.

Jesus said, "If you are ashamed of me, I will be ashamed of you, before My Father."

Not ashamed ... pass this on.

Ashamed ... delete it.


One day Satan and Jesus were having a conversation. Satan had just come from the Garden of Eden, and he was gloating and boasting. "Yes, sir, I just caught the world full of people down there. Set me a trap used bait I knew they couldn't resist. Got 'em all!"

"What are you going to do with them?" Jesus asked.

Satan replied, "Oh, I'm gonna have fun! I'm gonna teach them how to marry and divorce each other, how to hate and abuse each other, how to drink and smoke and curse. I'm gonna teach them how to invent guns and bombs and kill each other. I'm really gonna have fun!"

"And what will you do when you get done with them?" Jesus asked.

"Oh, I'll kill 'em," Satan glared proudly.

"How much do you want for them?" Jesus asked.

"Oh, you don't want those people. They ain't no good. Why, you'll take them and they'll just hate you. They'll spit on you, curse you and kill you!! You don't want those people!!"

"How much?" He asked again.

Satan looked at Jesus and sneered, "All your tears, and all your blood."

Jesus said, "DONE!" Then He paid the price.

Isn't it funny how simple it is for people to trash God and then wonder why the world's going to hell.

Isn't it funny how we believe what the newspapers say, but question what the Bible says.

Isn't it funny how everyone wants to go to heaven provided they do not have to believe, think, say, or do anything the Bible says. Or is it scary?

Isn't it funny how someone can say "I believe in God" but still follow Satan (who, by the way, also "believes" in God ).

Isn't it funny how you can send a thousand jokes through e-mail and! they spread like wildfire, but when you start sending messages regarding the Lord, people think twice about sharing.

Isn't it funny how the lewd, crude, vulgar and obscene pass freely through cyberspace, but the public discussion of Jesus is suppressed in the school and workplace.

Isn't it funny how someone can be so fired up for Christ on Sunday, but be an invisible Christian the rest of the week.

Are you laughing?

Isn't it funny how when you go to forward this message, you will not send it to many on your address list because you're not sure what they believe, or what they will think of you for sending it to them.

Isn't it funny how I can be more worried about what other people think of me than what God thinks of me.

Will YOU pass this on? .... I did

rushing terribly now..having tuition later. had lunch at j8 crystal jade..havent been there for such a LONG time it feels totally foreign. but it still appeals (or rather, doesnt appeal) to me as some ah lian world -looks at mina!! hahas. cut my hair at far east yesterday!! and i hated it violently but after my personal hairstylists (dada+tings+mina) helped me with it it seems more..acceptable, i guess. haha but ah well. my hair was really balding like fuck and i HAD to do something about it or i'd look like some aunty sooner or later. oh and the hairdressers helped us to straighten our hair till it was pencil striaght so its easier to cut or some shit like that and after cutting, we looked like some bitchass ah lian with rebonded hair! god. ahlianation. alienation! hahas anyway it was raining so after walking in the drizzle-ish rain, it started to become a tad normal again. haha and!! i took 502 express bus to go home but somehow i think they changed the damned route and i ended up at esplanade! and then since its a u-turn bus, it goes back to somerset so i can take my train BUT unfortunately i was so smart la. missed the bloody stop and ended up at holland drive ._. asked around and those people i asked were damn nice! helpfully pointed out directions and all. looked like some spastic kid. oh i forgot. looked like a spastic ah lian. so when i reached home i was all drenched and moody and sneezing like crazy. oh well. bad experience.

and just now during recess we went up to the gym to jump on the trampoline and it was so damn funn :D dinah valencia and some other girl was jumping so hard and it was most amusing. karina sat cross legged so she started bouncing up and down like some buddha when they jumped and there was this point where she was like meditating and rising above the air by a metre or so. and they started raping the poor girl ._. what instigated the rape was unknown but soon all of us there knew she had on black underwear cos she wasnt wearing any shorts underneath [!! yes and she still happily went to play at the trampoline..] and later i think tings joined in and i started flipping! literally did a somersault in the air unknowingly. was wondering whats going on when it happened. wasnt even sure if i did a flip till i turned around and saw nana and doreen's look on their faces. hahas. was just hell funny la.

yayy towning with dada and i dont know who else tomms. shall get my paul frank pullover and goggle at my eye candy :D grins wide. aha.

happy new year everyone :))

oh i shall go eat and rush to my tuition!!

You are Bloom!


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whines.
my gbk is stale! :(
stupid carol la.

anyway. towned ytd with dadeedoo and tanessa. bought a nice lil skirt!! (yes, freda. toss skirt. toss) and a flowery flowy tube from phuture london :) yayy exhilerated! haha. and i found this funny weird tube in heeren. it looks so damn funny so da suggested i wear it as a skirt. and its quite nice! haha really weird. anyhow. stupid crystal jade!! :(( in the end only had pure chocolate from coffee bean. haha dada and i mountain tortoise! weren't aware that they sell spaghetti and stuff other than brownies chocolate and mocha etc. oh! yes saw my darling sweetie :) and xin dinah qing..didnt see angel tho :( which is really sadd. that stupid girl. fluttered off the cloud and nvr reply my calls! still demanded me to hug her ._. hmrpf. saw wynnie tay also and we took VERY ugly pics..hate digi cams. and i decided that 8beam sucks lo. tht machine upstairs nicer. cheat my feelings! to think that i trusted 8beam so much..haha being lame as usual. i wanna watch the new movie the company! nc16 but ah. we have our ways -winks at da- just ame back from da's hse. 'did' math. more like stuffed myself with the ba gua and noodle man. yumm!! haha oh no cny. time to get fat and all.

so its true.

oh well. gtg. having dinner out!!

-

0701 :)))
love my dsf lover lotts. really, girl.

yayy! finally done with new layout :D
quite like it.
its much different than anything ive made. but got the headlines from elsewhere la obviously. look under host.

falala! shall go sleep. yawns. tomms gotta wake up at 630 for school. and help my sister's friend do her shite.

^x everything's changing

when i turn around
all out of my control
i'm a mobile
//mobile. avril lavigne

phoonty's gone! (not that im close to her or anything. but we were friends..once! haha) and soon everyone would be gone too..which is really traumatising when you think of it. there's tings, of course. and im NOT anticipating the shite. oh fuck. why cant the world be just a lone place? and we can all live together. and be happy. all the time.

havent been able to come online these days..hectic schedule! sigh. never felt so relieved when i was done with physics. the chem ppr sucked like hell :(

decorated class for chinses new year! actually it was more like pasting red packets all around. but it turned out to be quite nice! esp the board at the back of the class where yins did. and the window panes! but well. expect 4D to win la. as usual. haha realised 4D sounds/looks like 4D! 4D win win 4D. haha ok obviously im not talking abt toto la. i mean 4 diligence okay duh. am crappy.

towned just now. supposed to watch school of rock with my favourite girl but change of plans. in the end was out with dadeedoo :) and tanessa. hung around, met mrs pitt (or some 10 other guys' surname) and i bought the CUTEST..stuff. at ah. forgot what it was called. beads, i think. anyhow. saw wyn..audrey!! jacob/joseph. and there was funny lex who does the weirdest things. and..cant remember if there was anyone else. oh and da's junior samantha came with her bf and his friends. and i have to say that samantha has the nicest lashes ever. was happily watching them flutter in awe. haha and tanessa's complexion is like.. well. is she mortal??! just like freda. am like surrounded with perfect people! and of course. me with my large and grotesque nose. well. i shall not lapse into depression. haha cutting my hair tomms!! wish me luck! told tings i shall buy a wig if i look horrid. gulps. just..dont laugh at me when you see me!! cos im like balding thanks to my constant tying up of my hair and i needa change parting to get it back on track. and to do so, i have to snip bangs! just pray that i dont look tootified ._. yayy shall go bag hunting !! and maybe get a top or smth. hee! gleams with delight. haha.

you know i want to say i miss you
the way i did when the skies were blue.
but when black spurns white
its irreversible.
its complicated.
and i never would want
to screw things up for you
but i'll always be here. for you :)

i suspect that i have breast cancer (yea, WHAT breast?) but everyone thinks im mental! well. shall go the breast cancer webiste to check it out. and before i die please see me more often and well. smile! or something. hahaha this reminds me of poor da who cant pierce her ear cos its streaming with veins and she'd go blind if she went ahead and took the risk! ah the downs of having a delicate lil ear :) so cute! but well. you can live without it, girl. and please. dont think too much. nothing stays the same forever, remember that. -hugs-

are you aware of what you make me feel baby
right now i feel invisible to you
like im not real
you used to love me you used to hug me
but that wasnt the case
everything wasnt okay
i was left to cry there waiting outside there
grinning with a lost stare
when i decided
why should i care?
cos you werent there when i was scared
i was so alone.

i feel like changing my layout!

spastic is my middle name.

ever since school reopened, ive been doing stupid stuff. its horrid. i shall not mention anything and embarrass myself. its like a daily thing. shakes head. shall stop living in my own holiday daze and wake up. shakes self. anyway. hectic test schedules. i hate sec4. despise the thought of enduring another 10mths of this shite :((
besides. da and i agree there's no one to look forward to seeing. so every single day i walk to school with no sense of anticipation. am becoming a walking dead mummified dummy soon.

waiting for mum to come back with my dinner. shes gone to buy a new phone for sis! hers drowned (whoops!) but she could still trade in, i think. oh well.

and did i mention our physics teacher sucks. like totally. cant sand the sight of her. she thinks our class is driving her crazy. well thats a deliberate, stupid ass. because she drives us crazy. rolls eyes. like go away and get mrs khong back man.

people come and go. its so sad but hard to go with the flow.

growls. wtf is wrong with blogger man. my page has become the new blogger page.

anyway. yesterday's cca fair should be more of like food fair or something. this year st johnnie has so much good food nobody could resist! haha the poor juniors cooked and fried the stuff and we just gobbled them up. actually we nibbled them. there's a difference. haha. oh and we tried to catch butterflies but to no avail. they flitted away as soon as we neared them! spasticated. am horribly ashamed that i did nothing apart from eating, catching butterflies, plucking flowers and lying on the bed ._.

my sis is really sad that she has no more money to earn. poor girl.

and btw. i think that people should keep their nonsensical bitching to themselves and consider other people's feelings for a change. that could be a good new year resolution. -rolls eyes-

spent hours scouting for a .. present for nai. almost died in the search. with legs broken constipated bladder sleepy eyes and what not. haha anyhow. we found it in the end and since sq left to meet her mum to cut her hair, steph+i took the bus home from town. been quite long since we did that. haha talked all the way and it was like the old times. grr am bored. oh! and i bought this pink tube and a necklace thingy. yes buying things again :( but i really liked the tube. and i wont be squandering anymore anyway. so. hee.

math test postponed! :D


You love Orlando,Legolas,Will,Todd,Ned,Paris.You
love all of him!Try to tone down the love a
little though.I mean,there's a line.


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.. he's really cute and i like him but not overly much la. stupid quiz! made me sound like some maniac.


Your soul is bound to the Rose Bud: The
Naive.

"I keep all of my secrets somewhere inside
and though I haven't let myself shine to the
world, I'm good for something but too good to
give to you."

The Rose Bud is associated with innocence,
curiosity, and confidence. It is governed by
the god Cupid and its sign is The Dewdrop, or
Puppy Love.

As a Rose Bud, you may have grand ideas about love
and you may well be inexperienced. You tend to
be optomistic, idealistic, and curious, but
it's just because you like being a positive
person. You also may have high thoughts of
yourself, and can come off a bit conceited, but
it's just a mask to hide your lack of
experience.


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hurr. am not naive man. c r a p.


You are going to marry Justin Tiberlake. He has a
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do. Congrats!!


Which male celebrity are you going to marry? (10 results that have pics!)
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!!?? not justin..
WHY NOT ASHTON?!!??!
i cannot believe i did this quiz anyway


Reincarnation: You are nice enough to go to heaven,
but Earth won't be as fun without you. As a
real optimist and lighthearted person, you
always see the good in things. People probably
respect you for your wonderful personality and
love for life. People like you make the world a
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ha! love for life ._.


Protector Fairy
Please rate my quiz I worked really hard for this
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Johnny Depp.......he is soooo incredibly hot!!!!
You know it and even though he is a little
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is sweet, not incredibly like Orlando Bloom,
but he has just enough to satisfy you.



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i said ashton kutcher..


You are most compatible with Ashton Kutcher.
Honestly, he is really hot and sweet but also
stil a boy inside. You like the boyish side of
him, the little adorable immaturity that he's
got.


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hee! but why is this pic so toot?

in a quizzy mood. -shrugs-

^x feels like im starting it all over again

surrounded by sad people. kinda got influenced too :(

I whisper, remember what she did
Don't miss her
Set me free, she won't allow it

Angry and gone, and the list goes on and on
Now I'm letting up, I should be the one who's letting go
She's lonely, she's scared, I'm relationship impaired
If it's love, I will differ, I'm being lost being with her

I can't move on, I can't take it
She, she says we won't make it now
I can't move on, I can't take it
She, she says we won't make it now

Believing, the things i did were wrong
I'm leaving
It fades away, forget about it
She's binding, can't do a thing alone
Rewinding
Times before, can't live without it

I don't know
But you did you did
Please don't go
Now my feelings for you they're now lost
'cause we're through anymore
I'll write you, I'll call you
Now

watched lotr rotk! its really good. though i think i prefer the first one. maybe its cos i wasnt sitting with tings but behind her cos we didnt want to end up as one of those craning their necks at the first row. only spoke 2/3 times thru'out. either that or its that..i became less emotional?? which is really weird. i used to cry at practically every movie thats a tad saddening. oh and that embarassing incident. god. shall not blog about my stupor. too lazy to, anyway. glad to be back in school, in a way. finally could give tings a huge hug. missed that girl loads. had fun with you, babe. laughing like the old times :D we spend the entire morning till recess looking at gillian chung's pictures. my god that girl's so perfect in every way. supreme inferiority seeps in !

im so sick of being numb. im sick of feigning happiness when it feels so hollow inside.
oh what to sayy.
well to say it simply.

missed you.
its been ages since ive seen you.
i miss being able to do my spastic daily routines that my friends laugh about.
for some strange reason, i miss my thumping heart every morning when i climb the stairs.
i miss bumping into you anywhere in the compound
i miss your funny grin
i miss pretending not seeing you
i miss checking you out
i miss the lil notes in the letters
i miss sneaking peeks
i miss..so many things
and its strange because i dont even like you anymore.
and it seems to me that youre drifting further and further away.

out of reach now.

da's right.
C R A P P.

No ones to blame, here's where it all ends,
And I feel the pain, 'cause I'm without her,
I feel the pain..
I see the sight, with a different light,
Words cannot describe the way I'm feeling,
'Cause I've been searching in my head,
For the words I thought she'd said,
For too long..
I feel her.. Slipping through my fingers,
Now she's gone, I'm sleeping with the light on,
And sharks went through my veins now, that she's gone,
I'm sleeping with the light on.

-

haha. lame cute-ass poor thing freda and my lame conversation!

wend' along she came with her picture says:
haha okay youre a really patient shopper (:

freda ` // and i think about you all the time . says:
me? haha why?

wend' along she came with her picture says:
dont you know?

wend' along she came with her picture says:
youre really patient

wend' along she came with her picture says:
haha

-cut-

freda ` // and i think about you all the time . says:
huh..

freda ` // and i think about you all the time . says:
shit man!

wend' along she came with her picture says:
??

-cut-

wend' along she came with her picture says:
why you shit man

wend' along she came with her picture says:
??

wend' along she came with her picture says:
haha cos you patiently go w me and try so many crap dresses

wend' along she came with her picture says:
and at first stand outsdie some more!

wend' along she came with her picture says:
then happily bring dresses for me

wend' along she came with her picture says:
and the tube also!

wend' along she came with her picture says:
and now days later you still say you wanna go check w me if got size2!!

wend' along she came with her picture says:
haha

wend' along she came with her picture says:
whoevr does that man

wend' along she came with her picture says:
-lks at da like shes an endangered exhibit

wend' along she came with her picture says:
haha

wend' along she came with her picture says:
-hugs-

wend' along she came with her picture says:
suddnly felt like telling you i love youuu!!

wend' along she came with her picture says:
-chants- I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU

wend' along she came with her picture says:
oh i think im gonna get going!

wend' along she came with her picture says:
are you gonna reply me or what!?

wend' along she came with her picture says:
-demands a reply right now

freda ` // and i think about you all the time . says:
awwwwwww (((:

freda ` // and i think about you all the time . says:
I LOVE U TOO!!!!!

freda ` // and i think about you all the time . says:
((((:

cut off the ending and practically the whole coversation. doesnt make sense but as long as we know ;) all began with me whining about my zara skirt la. as usual. wen zi the mosquito. which is a retarded nickname sabrinanapok got me and only she still thinks its funny years later. can you believe she still calls me that!!? ok out of point.

hahaha sq very funny also!! aiyer. i love everyone leh. everyone but you. i only..like you. as in not like. does anyone get what i mean? not like like! oh forget it. yawns. shall really go sleep alrdy. tata, world. or rather. to anyone who bothers at all.

^x here's where it all ends

sigh. im not a spendthrift! nods.

out with dadeedoo just now. my legs are still aching. think its from the continuous walking ._. bought this a skirt from zara (dont have my frigging size so i had to get another sort that i dont quite like as much) and this pale pink top that is so unbelievably cheap it caught me in shock and was left dumbfounded for a few secs. anyway our initial plan was to watch sch of rock but long story. the thing is that we didnt catch it :( possibly watching it tomms, then.

da i cant do any judgement cos i dont think i should but cheer up :) theyre all like that. and its true that it might take them a day but it might take us weeks. months. but its okay with so many people to be there for you. alright? smile, my brave lil down syndrome friend :) oh. and have fun with leon :D wahaha. you havent reported to me how it went!!

You were my sun
You were my earth
But you didn't know all the ways I loved you, no
So you took a chance
And made other plans
But I bet you didn't think that they would come crashing down, no

You don't have to say, what you did,
I already know, I found out from him
Now there's just no chance, for you and me, there'll never be
And don't it make you sad about it

You told me you loved me
Why did you leave me, all alone
Now you tell me you need me
When you call me, on the phone
Girl I refuse, you must have me confused
With some other guy
Your bridges were burned, and now it's your turn
To cry, cry me a river
Cry me a river-er
Cry me a river
Cry me a river-er, yea yea

I know that they say
That somethings are better left unsaid
It wasn't like you only talked to him and you know it
(Don't act like you don't know it)
All of these things people told me
Keep messing with my head
(Messing with my head)
You should've picked honesty
Then you may not have blown it
(Yea..)

You don't have to say, what you did,
(Don't have to say, what you did)
I already know, I found out from him
(I already know, uh)
Now there's just no chance, for you and me, there'll never be
(No chance, you and me)
And don't it make you sad about it

You told me you loved me
Why did you leave me, all alone
(All alone)
Now you tell me you need me
When you call me, on the phone
(When you call me on the phone)
Girl I refuse, you must have me confused
With some other guy
(I'm not like them baby)
Your bridges were burned, and now it's your turn
(It's your turn)
To cry, cry me a river
(Go on and just)
Cry me a river-er
(Go on and just)
Cry me a river
(Baby go on and just)
Cry me a river-er, yea yea

Oh
(Oh)
The damage is done
So I guess I be leaving
Oh
(Oh)
The damage is done
So I guess I be leaving
Oh
(Oh)
The damage is done
So I guess I be leaving
Oh
(Oh)
The damage is done
So I guess I be... leaving

You don't have to say, what you did,
(Don't have to say, what you did)
I already know, I found out from him
(I already know, uh)
Now there's just no chance, for you and me, there'll never be
(No chance, you and me)
And don't it make you sad about it

Cry me a river
(Go on and just)
Cry me a river-er
(Baby go on and just)
Cry me a river
(You can go on and just)
Cry me a river-er, yea yea

Cry me a river
(Baby go on and just)
Cry me a river-er
(Go on and just)
Cry me a river
(Cause I've already cried)
Cry me a river-er, yea yea
(Ain't gonna cry no more, yea-yea)

haha quite an old song. never liked it but heard it again recently and it suddenly turned out to be not bad. rahh. lethargic.


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sometimes i wonder if people are aware of my existence. or the fact that i was there. and yes this is one of those times but i shall not get myself all fucked up over nothing.

did quite a lot of shopping recently. was like out of control or something. -laughs- previously with my mum then with yins and my sis and my sis and my sis. haha. think im going out with dadeedoo on monday! after tuition. do you feel like ikea, dsf? i miss tings and steph :( where is everyone? my personal kangeroo REEraroo? nanapok. momsiee!! and well. other poeple too..

oh! and happy birthday, 'daddy' though im sure youre never gonna read this. glad that youre back from msia already! my dear sister was fretting over why there were no messages during these 2/3days ._. she made me change my sim card countless times only to have me change back again!

im watching my sister getting ready to meet dino in sentosa. and i thought of a song. it doesnt apply to them or anything but i just thought of it.

One boy, one girl, two hearts, their world
Time goes by, secrets rise
One more, sad song, tears shed, she's gone
She'd take it back, if she only could

All the perfect words they seem so wrong,
She's gone
You wish that you could learn to see,
The door is closed and you wish you could be

Alone with you, alone with me
What can I do, I can not breath
My heart is torn, for all to see
Alone with you, alone with me.

Best friend, worst thing, she's been, cheating
Friend deceives, she leaves
Last date. she cries, whispers, goodbye
She walks once more, out that door

Please stay, don't go away
The hardest thing is letting go of you
Stay, don't go away
The hardest thing is letting go of you
What can I do?

Alone with you, alone with me, what can I do
I can not see, alone with, alone with...

lalala! in a good mood. not exactly high spirited but happy :)

haven't been using hotmail for a quite a while and i just discovered that they have a new image! haha quite nice. squarey.
i like the biotherm's lip gloss! i cant quite believe i actually did my geog hols hmwk and used 8 pieces of ppr! unknowingly! haha just realised that will young's leave right now really sound like one of those oldies but er its quite nice la. what is it with me and the word quite?? oh whatever. im always crappy when im happy. so. shall crap more! to anyone reading this [which is like nobody except myself] bear with it. hmm matt thorne's book child star is really nice! i liked it. though it think i mighta creased it. heh. was at the library and saw this book totally sparkingly new and the cover art was done quite nicely so i borrowed it. turned out to be nice! sigh. steph's gone! :( and dear shuqi has gone MIA. i hope tings comes back soon. im growing sick of writing letters instead of just calling her. read abt this politician accused of molesting maid and have an affair few years ago. dont think he's suited to be a politician anw. theyre supposed to be really saintly and everything. gonna do this issue for english hol hmwk! ok think i crapped enough alr. shall go off and do the DREADED math. oh god. i HATE math. if only the person who came up with math had amnesia before telling anyone about his strange inhumane findings ._.

// jessica simpson ; with you
all saints ; never ever

growls. just as i was happily thinking tht my cousin's comp likes me and doesnt throw its stupid tantrums by hanging on me, it does. the very next minute. hmrph. and now my cousin's standing behind me waiting for me to fin blogging so tht she cn play her neopets! ._.

nvm shall blog agn whn m home. laters!

well. if thats the way you want it to be.
its totally completely fine by me.
i would rather not sit around the whole day
and drive myself crazy during mid-may,

believe me, i have better things to do!

-

before the bloody bright red screen even rolled up
when it was so tense i couldnt even fart
a stupid naive lil kid i was, peek
ing at the corners, lifitng the covers.

scanning the applauding crowd, excitement
mounts, i see you, as my breath catches,
as my heart sparsely melted away,
you still had your arm wrapped around her.

-

but yes, thats the way i wanted it to be
you took the first step but when you stepped back
i fell - raucously at your feet, oh
i drove myself crazy, prattling on, no.

believe me, you were important in a poof

-

as cliche as it sounds, as time pass,
there was suddenly a digress of me from you
it felt like i was in the middle of
a joust, and you know ive never ridden

so i fell - raucously on the dewy grass
just like i did, when i fell for you.
and my world swirled in a mishmash of colours
with our songs as my only source of relic

-

but yes, thats the way i wanted it to be
you took the first step but when you stepped back
i fell - raucously a your feet, oh
i drove myself crazy, prattling on, no.

believe me, you were important in a poof

-

smiling goofily behind the screens
i was anticipating the curtain's call
but there was a problem with the strings
and everything, everything let loose.

you and i, we cant hide ourselves
in your eyes i could see how things were
and it's because they were the way they were
deep inside, i could see what your world meant to me

-

complications, webs of woven tales
that i would never be set for
as were the razed lines caked with blood
deep inside, i could comprehend that

things could never be the way
i wanted it to because the way
it was going to be, be shutting me out
as whenever razed lines needed to be

caked with blood again but baby that
just doesnt matter because im never
get through you even without your hands on hers.
frustration mounts, YOUre a mishmash of colours

well. if thats the way you want it to be.
its totally completely fine by me.
i would rather not sit around the whole day
and drive myself crazy during mid-may,

but believe me, you'd always be a part of me.

oh baby
even with you half gone
you were a part of me -
someone i was evolving into
with every hot and humid
long summer day inducted.
but when the curtain calls,
i wont be there no more.

^x no one knows how to say

that they're sorry.

[if they even bother at all]

decided to change my pic after all. after a few more glances, it REALLY does look kinda queer. this one's a lil funny too but whtevr. too lazy to do any more in-depth investigation. ladidum! met my sis and bought some..supplies that inspired me to complete wrapping my xmas presents! hee. steph..the way your present is wrapped is HORRIDLY..unique? ._. left with my sis' and anothr 1/2 of tings'. oh and yins' box! ladidum. shall buy thm all on friday..cnt wait for friday! :D my sister was packing her area of the bedroom and we had many great..discoveries!! really beneficial. -laughs discreetly-

Remember me
Feels like forever
Since the days
When we were friends
Don't understand
All these changes
I'm still the same
No need to pretend
Where'd it go?
Do you know
Maybe it just doesn't matter

Chorus
'Cause when I try to talk to you
I feel like I'm not getting through to you
Where did we go wrong
It's hard to be strong
When I talk
When I talk to you

There were times
In the beginning
When you were there
When I needed you the most
We'd sit and talk
About the future
And laugh about
Us getting old
Do you know
How it feels
I hope that you know that it matters

Chorus

I want you to know everything that I am
Don't want to know what life would be without you

oh wait.
WHAT IS HAPPENING?

sheesh.
i really have no right to be..agitated.
but i am.
and i dont know why.

but you have no right to just..
WHATEVER.

its not like im not over you anyway.

i want to watch so many movies! not really a lot. but now that tings is gone, [and the fact that everyone else either seem to be busy doing their own stuff or just arent movie-goers] there's nobody to drag to the movies anymore :( there's love actually and lotr part2! i missed it and now its out again. but! oh well. and duplex..and i forgot. feeling kinda deprived ._.

anyhow. was at my cousin's house last night and we suddenly started talking dirty and my male cousin, who's only 11 got all flushed and excited ._. he came up with Big Bird and KingKong for my very distant relatives who are visiting. cos, well, he ACCIDENTALLY entered the lavatory while Big Bird was bathing and er you can understand how he earned his nickname. even his sister cant stand him! kids these days -shakes head- i thought he was coined Big Bird because he thought he looked liike that yellow Big Bird from Sesame Street! ._.

I wake up, in the morning
Pull the blinds and see the sunshine
And I wonder, if this Monday
Will wipe the rain off yesterday

Let's go fishing, down the river
Let's go fly a kite on primrose hill
Take advantage of the sunshine
There's no telling when the rain comes in

I feel good, I feel fine
Kicked the flu last week now I'm alright

Come and meet me on the corner
Or just pick me up and we can drive
I was sitting, feeling pretty
Blast the music on the radio

I feel I'm walking, or maybe running
With my favourite song I'm humming

Da da da, da da da, da da da

I walked in to my house
Saw a spider in the bath tub
And when I screamed, It nearly ran
Cos he was just as scared as I was

Called my mom to tell her I love her
Cos she always has been there for me
See I'm blessed with a family
That will love me till eternity

Da da da, da da da, da da da
And I'm glad to be alive
Da da da, da da da, da da da
Whatever it's like outside
Da da da, da da da, da da da
I'm just glad to be alive
Da da da, da da da, da da da

Dressing up, with no effort
Put my hair up in a pony tail
My ID is getting rugged
I will buy myself another pair

I got a call, from my boyfriend
Saying he'll be here at seven
He said he made, a reservation
At our local dining station

As I walk, down the street
The puddle's soaking up my feet
In the water, there's reflections
Of the city street's projections

Stand and face me, just in case you
Miss a chance now to embrace me
Keep on walking, holding hands now
Let's enjoy this dark and rainy night

Started here, started there
With my skirt turned up but I don't care

I got home, kissed my daughter
Jumped in to bed with my lover
Listened to Harry Potter
On my cassette player audio

Da da da, da da da, da da da
And I'm glad to be alive
Da da da. da da da, da da da
With you right by my side
Da da da, da da da, da da da
I'm glad to be alive
Da da da, da da da, da da da
You make me glad to be alive
Da da da, da da da, da da da
Whatever it's like outside
Da da da, da da da, da da da
I'm just glad to be alive
Da da da, da da da, da da da
With you right by my side
Together the strain
And the wind and the rain
And the heartache and pain
Cos it's all just a waste of time

^x im FINALLY 15 :D

was out with steph and sq..had dinner at swensens that got us so IRRITATED [which later led to spasticness..sq esp. tsktsk!] cos this stupid waitress who musta hated us kept annoying us. too lazy to elaborate. anyhow shopped at muee and bought dalkis stuff!! hoho. and im almost done with xmas presents :) left with half of sq's and my sister's. coulda gotten them last night but by the time we reached taka the shops were all friggin closed already so what the hell. 'loitered' around and tried to pretend that we were guests of kathreen or whatever is her name's wedding..sq actually squeezed into the lift with those tourists to go upstairs to the rooms! got us staring after her in shock.

just came back from shopping with my mum..bought this black spaghetti, skirt and jacket. yes all black! what was going though my head man. coulda gotten similar spaghetti at mango's sale!! growls. forgot about it. nvm maybe i shall get it in another shade anyhow. was thinking of buying this guess dress. are they having a sale too? whee!! :D i love year end sales.

and to everybody who wished me, thank you!! :)

I remember all my life
Raining down as cold as ice
Shadows of a man
A face through a window
Crying in the night
The night goes into

Morning, just another day
Happy people pass my way
Looking in their eyes
I see a memory
I never realized
How happy you made me
Oh Mandy

Well you came and you gave without taking
But I sent you away, oh Mandy
Well you kissed me and stopped me from shaking
And I need you today, oh Mandy

I'm standing on the edge of time
I walked away when love was mine
Caught up in a world of uphill climbing
Tears are on my mind
And nothing is rhyming
Oh Mandy

Well you came and you gave without taking
But I sent you away, oh Mandy
Well you kissed me and stopped me from shaking
And I need you today, oh Mandy

Yesterday's a dream
I face the morning
Crying on the breeze
The pain is calling
Oh Mandy

Well you came and you gave without taking
But I sent you away, oh Mandy
Well you kissed me and stopped me from shaking
And I need you today, oh Mandy

Well you came and you gave without taking
But I sent you away, oh Mandy
Well you kissed me and stopped me from shaking
And I need you

Oh, Mandy won't you listen to what I've got to say
Oh, baby don't you let me throw it all away
Oh, Mandy won't you listen to what I've got to say
And I need you today
Oh, Mandy

nice song!! and im back!! 2 more days to my 15th year on this earth! :D -grins wide-
my mum is annoying me to go have my dinner now. laters!

aint xtina pretty.

11days to my birthday!!

just chatted with tings online!! miss that girl. shes coming back on the 23rd! :))) yayy. we shall be able to catch lotr togth like we do every year. and we were discussing about our er. sex crushes ;) and her stupid pesty sister who came along! hahas. so funny when i read back :) iloveyou! :D

When they push, when they pull
Tell me can you hold on
When they say you should change
Can you lift your head high and stay strong

Will you give up, give in
When your heart's crying out "that is wrong"
Will you love you for you at the end of it all

Now in life there's gonna be times
When you're feeling low
And in your mind insecurities seem to take control
We start to look outside ourselves
For acceptance and approval
We keep forgetting that the one thing we should know is

Don't be scared
To fly alone
Find a path that is your own
Love will open every door

See in your hands the world is yours
Don't hold back and always know
All the answers you will unfold
What are you waiting for
Spread your wings and soar

The boy who wonders, is he good enough for them
Keep trying to please them all
But he just never seems to fit in
Then there's the girl who thinks she'll never ever be
Good enough for him
He's trying to change and
That's a game she'll never win

In life there will be times when you're feeling low
And in your mind insecurities seem to take control
We start to look outside ourselves
For acceptance and approval
We keep forgetting that one thing we should know is

Don't be scared
To fly alone
Find a path that is your own
Love will open every door

See in your hands the world is yours
Don't hold back and always know
All the answers they will unfold
What are you waiting for
Spread your wings and soar

In the mirror is where she comes
Face to face with her fears
Her reflection looked forward on to her
After all these years
However how she's tried to be
Something besides herself
Now time has passed and she's ended up
Somewhere else with regret

What is it is that makes us feel the need
To keep pretending
Gotta let ourselves be

Don't be scared
To fly alone
Find a path that is your own
Love will open every door

See in your hands the world is yours
Don't hold back and always know
All the answers you will unfold
Don't wait no more
Spread your wings and soar

Find your road
Love will open every door
See in your hands the world is yours
Don't look back in the window, you'll find your way
Always know all the answers will unfold

Oh don't wait
Spread your wings and soar
Don't wait no more
You've got to soar
Spread your wings and soar
Don't wait no more
No don't you wait no more
Spread your wings and soar
You've can soar

I AM SO FREAKING IRRITATED!!!!!!!!!!
BLOODY SIMS WILL NOT WORK IN MY BLOODY COMP!!!!!
ARGH!!

-runs to the nearest ocean and jumps into it-

but then again. i would die just running to an ocean.

ARGH!
fucking piece of shit!!
i have superstar and making magic all here staring at me BUT the original one cant work. and without it, i can dream on!! FUCK!

//under construction tentatively.

graduation, graduation, graduation.
i wish i were sec4 THIS year too!
everyone's bustling around getting their dresses, makeup and hair done.
mounting excitement!!
if only i were there!!

//i think to myself where do i belong forever?

was out with doreen and nana yesterday. and yes, sabrina wee. i insist on calling you wee yue wen. and please stay out of mobile archive, thank you. coulda strangled tht girl. watched tht butterfly show. la papilion or whtever. tht girl is so damnit cute!! my god. though i was trying hard to sit straight thru'out the entire movie owing to the fact that my bladder was bursting any minute!! sheesh. and the both of them just happily dismissed my imperative condition, asking me to 'go pee la!' just so i would desist my whining. thank you, i DIDNT know i should do that! -grumbles. BUT i lasted till the movie ended la. realised i overshared. but anyhow. the movie's quite good. and gramps+grandfather in french is so cute! pipi or something. cant remember. anyway doreen was moooooody and subdue. until, of course SOMEBODY perked her up ;) had dinner at pastamania and nana has a problem with my process of putting spaghetti on the spoon and adding cheese to it before i devour it. thats the way i eat it okay! hmrpf.

s t e p o ! signed your deserted guestbk. did you check? cant wait for friday either. been a LONG time. really! need to buy some bras..-wiggles eyebrows- suddenly thought of our er times when i'd cradle in your..sheesh. this is getting RAted. as always! just hope people dont get the wrong idea like they did about you+tings..for being pl. -laughs- THAT was HILARIOUS.

t i n g s ! i missed you BADLY, girl!! not sure if you got to use your dad's laptop like last time but er i guess not. anyhow. HURRY UP AND COME BACK ALREADY!! im becoming a living souless ghoul ._. got stuff to tell you tooooo!! GRUNTS IN FRUSTRATION.

:,(




Do you know when you go when you give it all away
I'll be there for you, care for you
Love you everyday oh baby
And do you feel the same for me?
Everyday you're away
And I feel a little low
I would cry for you, die for you
Just to let you know oh baby
And if you come to me you know I'll make it right.

sorry you cant define me
sorry i break the mold
sorry that i speak my mind
sorry dont do what im told
sorry if i dont fake it
sorry i came too real
so here it is. no hype. no glass. no pretense.

sorry if i aint perfect
sorry i dont give a fuck
sorry i aint no diva
sorry i just know what i want
sorry im not a virgin
sorry im not a slut
i wont let you break me, think what you want
lift your head high and stay strong. keep pushing on.

//xtina aguilera.

heh.

my sister is grinning ear to ear. literally. cos her o's end today. and her happiness is so contagious! anyway shes happily skipped to town or PS or wherever jurassic park is today ;)

am stuck at home with my mum. reading how to deal again. heh. and wondering when sq would be back to lend me SIMS :( i WANT TO PLAY SIMS!! argh.

young girl, dont cry.
i'll be right here when you world starts to fall
young girl its alright
your tears will dry, you'll soon be free to fly.

its stuck in my mind!

and tingtingtings. when are we gonna catch wishing stairs?? heard its good! :) us the scary-movie-goers.

steph! its up to you when you wanna come. my mum says its okay.

daily horoscope for sagittarius by Cosmogirl

Sagittarius
(November 23-December 21)

Yup, you've got responsibilities that can seem to get in the way of fun today, but that's the way it is sometimes, Saggie. Focus on school, work, and taking care of business at home. The more efficient you are now, the more freedom you'll have later to do what you want. Besides, you'll probably feel good about yourself by showing how mature you can be.

^{x havent felt this way in a long time x}

didnt feel like blogging.
too tired.

yesterday was a day filled with emotions! like happy one moment then shocked then worried then happy then sleepy and stony..you get the picture.

my results suck like fuck. and my mums so nice about it. im gonna do something with that rotting brain of mine this hols. two stacks of books piled up on my table. i shall conquer math!! yayy. heh. too early for celebration. got motivated to pack my table. its so neat now! and i found this hello kitty scotch tape thingy. so cute! resting on my table now :)) and the plant on my table is finally growing! haha.

went to stephs house yesterday to slack and play SIMS :D shuqi got all of us addicted! anyway i SO guai-ly went to school for cca just to find out there isnt cca. im toot la. forgot that they passed a message down that there wasnt cca. hmrpfs.

my sister is crazy. seriously deranged. shes abusing this lil cute toy that she puts right in front of her when she studies. think she placed it there for convenience. so she can torture it whenever shes stressed. poor toy. its really cute. and soft! nice to touch :)

anyway i did the e.lit holiday hmwk today!! heh. went to the mall with kmiang :) couldnt find her three quarts la. a non branded and ugly one costs 40bucks. madness.

my sister's having tuition now. she+her tutor are like damn lame. i almost burst out laughing by what they tell each other! BUT i caught myself and remembered that i am supposed to be minding my own business. and now he's saying that shes lying to him claiming there's something that decolourises some shit and he's laughing at her being so..whoops. and WHY am i blogging about this?!

tings!! is your comp FINALLY done?? anws am not pissed la! youre always blur as usual. but anyway, dont worry. we can always catch wishing stairs some other day. loveyou!! and have fun at your annual dinner. miss you, babe :) p.s you'd better be coming for chem tomms and not con me okay!

now my sis+tutor's arguing over whether some shit decolourise.

decided to sign gbks here. seems to be down!

haha steph+sq!! bth of you darn cute :D
was grinning like a cheshire cat. teehee! oh but im not pricess la. typo, you two!
haha and steph, i have not blogged about that part when kerms+i were trying to pull the triangle part of your bikini and uh, exposed! ;)
YES you guys are like superr slowpokey okay -glares- haha you guys are like such good consultants!! kerms too. im feeling darn lucky to have free clothes specialists :D and i used to have this aspiring ENORMOUS pimple but after tanning, its suddnly tamed down!! oh and ive solved the mystery to the red patches we developed. its bcos the banana boat tanning lotion has 0 SPF which means 0 protection from the sun which means..HIGH CHANCE OF SKIN CANCER!! gawd. nvm at least we have each other in the hospital ward la. anw the 0 SPF one was the only tanning lotion there so had to buy that one and didnt see carefully!! -growls- oh well. at least we had the exfoliating session :) er steph THE champion why were you screaming and yelping while swimming to our wooden island?? and you and tings' white sunblock was shocking! did you watch GOTCHA just now? the white ghost that the hosts planned to con sharon au? yes you guys look a lil like that ghost..-runs away before you whack me- haha and does trying on two pairs of jeans make me a ZIPPY?!! momsie! and tht reminds me of the ever horny steph who took this porno pic of me. hrmpfs. AND I LOVE YOU BOTH TOO!! :D -grins till my mouth aches- and steph, you'll find my decayed tooth outsyd of your window right now :)

kermin!! you remember the candid shot that steph took of you?? its damnit cute. my god. you look like some cartoon character! my sister thinks so too!! so cute. im nvr ever gonna delete that! heehee

bernbern//you horny thing la you! dont you try deny it! kiat showed me this book that you lent her..and its one of those bian tai RAted ones again. -shakes head- tsktsk. dont try and push the title to me la. youre still the horny queen *falala!! heh. haha i aint big chiobu la. sheesh! tings yes but not me. sad but true. heh. am gonna studystudystudy too!! revise sciences and maths. been really slacky this year!! :( we shall work hard togth. loveeyou!

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okay am done.
i cannot believe that this dumbass mailed me and went : youre so cute! are you sec1?? youre sec1 right?
oh. my. god.

NO I AM NOT.

i absolutely hate people who does things like that. for the last time, im not a kiddo. okay.
im a grown up BIG girl on her way to blowing 15 candles in 29 days.
so think before you speak -rolls eyes-

wyn+da! your friend leh!!

anyhows.
went ree's house today :)) brought ai qing bai pi shu vcd for her and she wasnt pleased!! -grumbles- supposed to bring other vcds tomms. had tomyam from that stall that we both liked since..a year ago. and her sisters are damn funny. but its true. just remember me when youre all rich and famous okay? and dont be silly, im str8. what are you talking about?? spent hours watching it and also getting abused meanwhile. she cannot stop burping in my face, scratching my knee and lying all over me, screaming when i move to get back to my original position so that she can rest her hand on me!! and whacking me. oh and hurling abuse at me la! happily calling me stupid like its my middle name. hmrpfs. but thanks anyway for accompanying me all the way to toa payoh to drop two books at the bookdrop and also bring me all the way right infrnta my bus stop because im such a green horn in that area la. inexperienced. and bet youre happy now that he's visiting you and finally watching your show with you tomms. i can see your face shining exuberantly already. you luckylucky girl you :)

oh before that went to school. missed chem lessons cos someone told me it was 830. so went for stjohnnie instead. drew the letters and we're SNSJ haemoglobinated! haha thought the phrase was cool! so drew the letters and left la. heh. but am happy though. elated :D cos of an..encounter :))))

am so happy today [esp after talking to tings on the phone and recounting the..encounter] i smiled at this other stnicks girl living near my house and even created some small talk :)

oh they've finally ended the decolourising debate. shall go watch bachelor now.
oh my god. he's singing a song ._.

just came back!! :D

sucha happyhappyhappyhappy day today -grins at anyone who comes my way-
darn tired and missed holland v and punk'd BUT im still happy :D

tings driver came and got us to town so obviously we towned and found the most fab jeans though we actually saw them before but for some weird reason we got superbly excited about it this time!! but there was no time [and no money] so we headed up to crystal jade and had our lunch+breakfast :) ll always love that stuff.
then we started planning our getaway ._. think too much la. heh.

then went sentosa and met up with steph * queenie!! sq * momsie!! kerms *plime :) and headed to some beach. think its palawan la but its been such a long time since we went sentosa..[yes kuku us] lyk 5mths ago or smth we were overjoyed with the sight of the beach we just charged ahead!! changed then crossed over that bridge to that southernmost continent or some crap place. teehee! felt like we were stranded on some island then we swam to that wooden block of thingy and started tanning! but before that we were contemplating for a loong time whether we should swim and stared at the sea for some time. shuqi was the hao lian one [hee!] and kermin was the so-so la. and me! the slowpok! steph+tings worst lo. screaming and yelling their lungs out and had to be escorted. so anyway the banana boat golden tanning oil worked quite well cos now there is SUCH an obvious tan line along my boobs and erm well, the bottom. however, it was not effective without all of us going through this trial of rashes or whatever it is. developed red patches!! kermin+i wenta buy drinks and stuff and when we were back, found this 3 silly people doing something to each others' back! they look damn corny and found out steph the genius came up with this exfoliating thing!! at first we were like rolling our eyes and going 'are you sure?!' but after some proof, we all started exfoilating each other in circles and well, shifting around whenever someone whines that no one's exfoiliating for her. shall not tell anyone steph's cool discovery!! :)) in the end we all had smooth and tanned legs+backs! :)) oh and when we were tanning this group of ANNOYING guys were obviously turned on by steph or something. kept following us lo. SHEESH. all 5 of us lying next to each other on the wooden thingy and they were like JUMPING AROUND US or playing some kinda DUMB game. GAWD. and they cant even SWIM. -faints- we swam to and fro from the shore to the wooden thingy like 3/4 times and its so NEAR they cant even make it. like get lost, losers. anyway, we had shuqi's FAB chocolate cake!! its DAMN good. really. my momsie rawwks :D and stephs muffins er not bad either. though i didnt eat it. heh. bought all the chips but nobody ate! didnt eat much actually. anyhow, we were drawing stuff on the sand with this stick when suddenly someone came up with this idea of burying someone and i told them about that scene in crazy/beautiful. so we decided to bury steph's entire body and heehee!! that poor girl! kenna tortured by us!! made ENORMOUS boobs till it cracked and all. was really fun!! took pics of us at work and steph's constipated face and tadahh!! our masterpiece! actually we took alorta pics la. with my phone. it got so sandy in the end! and kermin wenta hide it in the rocks when we were playing in the water. was worried that some crab or animal would come take it away ._. and tings thinks there are SHARKS in the water!! sheesh. anyway was very fun in sentosa and actually tings+i were leaving for town first but in the end we all left togther and her driver fetched all of us to town :)) took pics and pics and pics and yea. you get the picture. [oh! you get the picture and we took pics! pun! :D] but we looked helluva retarded ._. with that distorted phone of mine.

so tings went with her mum after that and she got to buy her jeans that we discovered and she left. [i bought my jeans in the end too!] meanwhile, after eating, we wenta miss selfridge, mango, URS, charles+keith, phuture london, future state, m)phosis, topshop, surfbabe, fcuk and some other shops that i cant remember. gawd. legs were like breaking. we were SO energetic at first trying literally EVERYTHING that we thought was nice and even lame stuff just for the fun out of it. and turned out the lame stuff was quite nice!! though i'd look like a retard walking around with a sleeveless purplish pink tee with rows+rows+rows of circular stuff hanging over it!! saw this mango top that i REALLY liked but even small was big :(( it wasnt big but that special metal thing that holds it up is standard and its so frigging low the whole thing reveals like 3/4 of my boobs ._. but if held up, its nice!! liked it ALOT but oh well. saw some stuff that am gonna buy on friday!! we're gonna celebrate kermin's bday and buy what we saw today :D tried on some nice sophiscated dresses at phuture london [u know the kind you wear to attend weddings or for some grand party but they're too glam to walk around in in the streets.] and they're nice too!! but too impractical. might buy one just for the fun out of it :) think the people in URS musta been really irritated with us. tried everything from boots to wedges [how do you spell it??!] to this ballerina shoes!! was dancing around till..well, was dancing around till i spotted another nice slip-on to try on. teehee.

literally shopped till we dropped.

i need someone to massage my legs.
like badly.
my knees feel so srunched up!!

and steph+sq+kermin? thanks for my EARLY bday present. loved it :)
love you guys!!

in fact, i love SW*K!! :D

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huh. im really bored.

friendster's freaking slow. and some stupid ass hacked into my accnt!!
i kp signing in bt they kp telling me i cnt enter.
thn finally its okay nw..

feel very bhb approving ppl's testimonial! sheesh.

my eye was bleeding last nyt. think i over rubbed it or smth. n i continued rubbing it even after it was bleeding! sheesh. gross. shall spare anyone reading this [which is no one] the explicit details. but it wasnt spewing out blood like doreen thinks it was la. it was more like a mixture of blood+tears [?!?] freaked me out. anyhow, its okay now. just a lil red. should i wear contacts?

read king of the castle. its such a disturbing book! both hooper+kingshaw's parents are sexually deprived. like yuck! get a life. and hooper obviously has mental problems. kingshaw's like dumb? cant speak up for himself.
happen to like fielding only. he seems like the only sane person in there.

am growing a pimple plantation across my forehead!! GRR. i need to do something about this..eyesore.
tell me why isnt blackmores working all of a sudden?!!?

yayy sentosa tomms :))

listening to bsb's i'll never break your heart! -laughs. such an old song but it suddenly seems nice again :)

the o's ytd was okay, i think. but got one word and three answers to close passage wrong already :(

towned after that. it was like..played hide and seek la ._. -looks tiredly at wyn-
plopped on my bed and zZZz immediately after i reached home [after bathing la. im not gross]

watched matrix though! :) why is trinity so..aged and old?! not that she's been attractive in the past or anything but still. she wasnt like that! neo suddenly looks better than he did. hmm. and this one's quite touching! suddenly its drama. the ending's quite odd. it ends with sunlight streaming in. how weird is that?! big bro and i both decided that its highly possible that there's gonna be matrix4! but maybe years later.
cine is flooded with posers [yuck.] and stinky smokers every night.
charlie busted is on cosmogirl cover page as the most wanted 101! :) yayy.
and blue's on lime :))
spotted them in times..while..playing hide and seek yesterday.

have decided that im gonna work hard and fail only like add math [since my add math is like hopeless ever since i took it up] from next year. am mugging during hols. whenever and wherever. -grim look.

//so there.

picnic this coming tues! :D
exciting. teehee. been a long time since i picnicked [?! or is it picnic-ed?? whatever la]!

stephsteph queenie you guys aint wearing tees to sentosa right?! you'll get bad tan lines! so ya all shall wear bikinis and shun bian tan while youre at it! :D

^{x your face
holds me over
your face
its wipes away the rain
with a hundred summer skies
and everytime i talk to you
its like im alright
and everytime i talk to you
i get a lil closer to light.}

ytd ws my daddy's bday and we didnt do anything for him at all. my mum ws lyk do you all knw its your dad's bday? we knew but didnt do anything. just didnt feel lyk la. anw sis is lyk busy preparing for her o's and im busy..doing my thing? so i just sent him a msg : happy bday, daddy! :D we love you!
thts okay, right?

im so frigging bored at home. everyone's either home busy rahh-ing at the dumb shou ce_s or out somewhr and nt bothering to say hi anymore or just rotting away at home lyk me :(

studied lyk 3hrs of chinese and i feel lyk my eyeballs are falling off soon. really feel the need to barf at the book.
maybe burying them after all these end wouldnt be a bad idea.
and to think tht tings went into hibernation w hers.
i wlda broken all walls regardless of the strong forces.
it'd be hard to even breathe with those books at the corner of my eye :(

and i needa tan. am seriously fading away into the surroundings.

oh mann. wai+my conver is getting from lame to bad!! wht is wrong w us? what is wrong w me?! coming up with all these crap. but they seem to amuse me just fine :) poor wai.

just finished typing stuff for my dear chaipo

and i was just surfing ard when i realised ! we have a sec2unity website! and complete w gbk and everything! was lyk -eyes bulge out- when i found it. totally amazed.

anw, shall go off nw. and study chinese. and eat. and bathe. and rot. grr :|

^{x cos i was feeling as small as a drop in the ocean
and now i realise that nothing has been as beautiful as when
i saw heaven in your eyes x}

i was gonna type .... when i suddenly remembered that my blog is supposed to be presentable so argh. sod it. stupid friendster is so freakin slow! gawd. ive bn waiting to read a msg since hlaf an hour ago! myspace is really much faster. but nobdy's there ._.

realised i go onlyn at the weirdest hours of the day.

^{x and i said,
goodbye to you.
goodbye to everything
i thought that i knew
you were the one i loved
the one thing that i tried to hold on to.}

but anyway, the hols are here and i for the first tym evr, i wished school wouldnt end :(

spent the whole of ytd reading ths thick book called 'to be someone' and its qt nice la. dnt knw why i wasted my day away reading tht draggy book bt some parts are qt nice.

my sister is looking so grave preparing herself for the o's tomms. feeling freaky for her!! dnt wna do tht nxt year :( wished i were sec2 all my life. thts the year whn everything was interesting, when everyone was almost happier, if nt, happier than now, everyone was nicer, everyone was prettier, everyone was smarter, everyone was..okay. it was just a whole lot better than what it is at the present. but oh well. talking crap.

and i cant believe some parent's gonna sue someone for using vulgarities in her blog. i mean its hers and isnt it some kinda human right that everyone has the right to express themselves in whatevr way they wish to? its nt lyk they're using vulgarity in tht parent's blog or anything. if tht parent doesnt lyk what she sees, thts her problem, right? this world is seriously restrictive and screwed.

was out with ree+nana on friday :) i really lyk the erm connection btween us, as doreen would put it. haha. everytime we go out together, its always different from how it feels when im with other people. the feeling doesnt fade or change even though we go out like during the hols only? but we shall go out togth more often, shant we? :)

came up with a plan to go to ree's house w/o her knwing and give her a surprise or smth bt she claims tht she 'already has a feeling tht we'd be coming'. and tht nana! she claims tht she knws the way to ree's hse lyk the back of her hands [and thn needless to say, she goes into ths long and dowry debate with herself abt why ppl hafta say its the back of their hands and not the front..or why not the foot and so on..] and she evn reprimanded me for not knwing the way to ree's house myself! [i only went once okay! ._.] what happened in the end? we got freaking lost and i ended up getting pricked by ths stupid large cactus and cos it's so unique and..exotic and i had ths black liquid on my hand, i was complaining to her tht i got poisoned, all thanks to her and she all she says is 'dont be dumb, wendy.' hmrpf. well thanks for your concern. but yea, im up and alive still. and then, after we found her block, [finally] we didnt knw wht storey she was living in! lyk sheesh. her flat has 21 storeys, for god's sake. climbed up and dwn and up and up then down again and finally got the right house. then emerges ths sleepy ree with a pissed look on her face and clad in this pooh night dress that i have too! heh. anw, she didnt have the key [!!?] so we stood there lyk idiots and luckily her maid came back with her dog [and nana kpt asking ree if this ws the same dog as the prev one cos this one's bcome so ugly [!! which is nt true] and ree kps saying yes its the same one and nana goes WHAT HAPPENED?! ._. anw, after inspecting her room, nana finally took up the interest of going to orchard library. but before that, we just had to debate about whether ree should wear this tube or tht ralph lauren tee or that spaghetti or tht halter ._. and of course, they had to laugh at me for commenting tht 'ree's jeans is so long!' hmrpf. tht doesnt neccessary mean im short okay. so we finally left her hse [complete with viewing her dahling's pic and evrything -winks-] and went to orchard library to find that by the time we were done eating tht cafe galiliee's horrible food, it ws already close to 7 and we had to leave cos there's gonna be some performance :( so we went lips [and they ordered food again] and studied a bit [watched rachel's new mtv. shes really pretty and she does not look unique or anything, sabrina wee yue wen. shes just pretty. so there [i won!] okay ths is childish bt anw, we had to leave lips cos ppl are starting to stream in for dinner and we're taking up the place so we decided to go back to ree's hse [left our stuff at ree's hse] and we talked and talked and talked till 10+ and i was whining tht we better leave cos im well, afraid of going home alone at night in case any..er things tht i cannot see appear [i knw i cnt see evn if they do but thts nt the point] and cause me to have scary encounters. finally! we left after much persuasion and i lugged my books and bag along [resembling very much lyk a nerd].

falala.
realised i typed alot! and mostly crap but bah.
okay, shall go check my friendster.
later.